On a small farm in India's Maharashtra state, Mirabai Khindkar said the only thing her land grew was debt, after crops failed in drought and her husband killed himself.
Farmer suicides have a long history in India, where many are one crop failure away from disaster, but extreme weather caused by climate change is adding fresh pressure.
Dwindling yields due to water shortages, floods, rising temperatures and erratic rainfall, coupled with crippling debt, have taken a heavy toll on a sector that employs 45% of India's 1.4 billion people.
Mirabhai's husband, Amol, was left with debts to loan sharks worth hundreds of times their farm's annual income, after the 3-acre (1-hectare) soybean, millet and cotton plot withered in scorching heat.
He swallowed poison last year.
"When he was in the hospital, I prayed to all the gods to save him," said 30-year-old Mirabai, her voice breaking.
Amol died a week later, leaving behind Mirabai and three children. Her last conversation with him was about debt.
Their tragedy is replicated daily across Marathwada, a region in Maharashtra of 18 million, once known for fertile farmland.
Last year, extreme weather events across India affected 3.2 million hectares (7.9 million acres) of cropland – an area bigger than Belgium – according to the New Delhi-based Centre for Science and Environment research group.
Over 60% of that was in Maharashtra.
"Summers are extreme and even if we do what is necessary, the yield is not enough," said Amol's brother and fellow farmer Balaji Khindkar.
"There is not enough water to irrigate the fields. It doesn't rain properly."
Between 2022 and 2024, 3,090 farmers took their own lives in Marathwada, an average of nearly three a day, according to India's Minister of Agriculture Shivraj Singh Chouhan.
Government statistics do not specify what drove the farmers to kill themselves, but analysts point to several likely factors.
"Farmer suicides in India are a consequence of the crisis of incomes, investment and productivity that you have in agriculture," said R. Ramakumar, professor of development studies at the Tata Institute of Social Sciences.
Farming across many Indian smallholdings is done largely as it has been for centuries and is highly dependent on the right weather at the correct time.
"What climate change and its vulnerabilities and variabilities have done is to increase the risks in farming," Ramakumar said.
This "leads to crop failures, uncertainties ... which is further weakening the economics of cultivation for small and marginal farmers."
The government could support farmers with better insurance schemes to cope with extreme weather events, as well as investments in agricultural research, Ramakumar said.
"Agriculture should not be a gamble with the monsoon."
Faced with uncertain weather, farmers often look to stem falling yields by investing in fertilisers or irrigation systems.
But banks can be reluctant to offer credit to such uncertain borrowers.
Some turn to loan sharks offering quick cash at exorbitant interest rates, and risking catastrophe if crops fail.
"It is difficult to make ends meet with just farming," Mirabai said, standing outside her home, a tin-roofed hut with patch-cloth walls.
Her husband's loans soared to over $8,000, a huge sum in India, where the average monthly income of a farming household is around $120.
Mirabai works on other farms as a laborer but cannot pay back the debt.
"The loan instalments piled up," she said, adding that she wants her children to find jobs outside of farming when they grow up.
"Nothing comes out of the farm."
The agricultural industry has been in a persistent crisis for decades.
And while Maharashtra has some of the highest suicide rates, the problem is nationwide.
Thirty people in the farming sector killed themselves every day in 2022, according to the National Crime Records Bureau statistics.
At another farm in Marathwada, 32-year-old farmer Shaikh Imran took over the running of the family smallholding last year after his brother took his own life.
He is already more than $1,100 in debt after borrowing to plant soybeans.
The crop failed.
Meanwhile, the pop of explosives echoes around as farmers blast wells, hoping to hit water.
"There's no water to drink," said family matriarch Khatijabi. "Where shall we get water to irrigate the farm?"
